Wildest

In our wildest dreams, we paint pictures with colors that we have never seen, never imagined. In our wildest dreams we are without boundaries, without rules.  We create and perform magic and we have an unlimited supply of hope. And we wake up.  Usually, that is the hard part. The waking up.

Nightmares are another story.  We are challenged by monsters. Fantasy or metaphorical, it doesn't matter, these monsters challenge us until we are defeated or until we wake. Waking is never easy.

My whole life has been fucking purgatory.  The second I begin to have a moment of relaxation, clarity or contentment, chaos ensues. And I roll with it. When it's all you know, all you've lived, you have no choice.  

I am 40. I am still waiting for my break.  

My life has been fulfilling. My life has been good. However, my life has not been calm. I have been trained to sit and wait for the other shoe to drop. 

I was not well trained for what began August 24th. More on that to come.